A Portrait of the Black-eyed Bastard

For the sake of Sithis, why do all my works look so ugly? Is that a curse? Can it be cured?
Need to mention that I was suffering with this picture for a month or even more because of the lack of time. I can't even look at the Outsider's face anymore, no matter he is handsome and etc.  
I'm ending my short monologue with the wise words of Sheogorath:"Oh, just take the damn thing".

This bastard belongs to Bethesda, btw